Hi. I'm Matt. This has been a place of regurgitation and frivolity (don't fret, it will continue to be) but, with any luck and a titch of effort, it will also become a place where I think, document and be more me than it has been previously. Run on sentence much?
Go with your heart, our brains only screw things up.
“Chuck versus the Ring” - Season 2 of Chuck
Yeah.. I’m quoting Chuck. Thing is.. it is applicable.
There are some things I’m wondering tonight, because I’m working and I hate work because it means I’m alone, and even though I came here to be a little bit alone, I don’t want to be alone.
I don’t know where I’m headed again. It’s a splendid feeling much of the time and a sharp burning feeling in short spurts of other times. My choice is not to trade it for anything else. My heart says it’s worth it, my brain wonders. This is a road similar, but different, to roads I’ve seen before. It’s a “journey is the destination” kind of thing. It’s an “everyone is different” kind of thing. It’s a “it’s a nice change for my face to hurt from smiling” and “hello, good morning Perfection” kind of thing. So as long as, when asked, “yes or no to continue on?”, I can answer “yes. but what if…” and not “no but I don’t want it to end…”… well, as long as I can say “Yes” and keep moving, then I win.
Further, it’s crucial to stay grounded in that… this applies to everyone.. everyone involved; it applies to both of us. I won’t be foolish enough to think it only applies to you or me, no matter how foolish I get.
